My OCD is almost appeased, you guys =D

I had around 350 journals, comments, and deviations to reply to in my inbox earlier today. And now I have 63, which are Lai and Puck’s deviations. I think I’ll leave them ‘til tomorrow because I’m really tired, but~ God, I feel accomplished! XD

I swear to god, I’m a computer. The more I clean stuff out and organize it, the calmer and more focused I get. ^^

What am I doing with my life, you guys. I fucked around all weekend and now I’m doing homework when I should be in bed.

Granted, this is  simple homework, so it’s not going to take me forever. But still. I need to stop. And, y’know, stop going on Archive of Our Own.

I wish I could resist crossover fanfictions, guys. And when Doctor Who, Homestuck, or Stargate SG-1 is involved … I simply cannot resist.

Two of my biggest fandom weaknesses: sexswapping and crossovers.

Now, to do this homework at last. ;;;

fastpuck:

lady-condom:

“I don’t wanna tell you this but dad’s going to die in 10 years time. You’d better be prepared.”

OR

“READ BATMAN COMICS, DUMMY.” 8T

“Stay awesome, you little punk. Also get ready to make comics about gay sharks, no I’m serious that’s going to be your claim to fame someday, stop laughing you fucker omg”

and then i would teach my little self to fist bump

“It’s okay, you know- you’re not a freak. You weren’t “built wrong” or anything else you’ve been telling yourself. You’re asexual and aromantic, and that’s okay. Don’t worry about the fact that you can appreciate female beauty as well as male- that doesn’t mean you’re a lesbian, so just chill the fuck out. (And also, there would be nothing wrong with you if you WERE. That slight homophobia you had before meeting weeplittlelionman needs to stop.) Also, your bad social skills are in part due to your father’s alcoholism and your lack of social interactions due to where you live, so stop worrying about that too. Maybe you’ll never get along with others normally, but don’t feel too bad. Just don’t be aggressively rude, okay?

And as for Dad, push him. Push him to quit, and support him when he tries (and fails, and tries again). Let him KNOW what it’s doing to you. Talk to him. Talk to your whole family, and your friends. If you don’t let people know what you’re going through, nothing will ever change. But most of all, accept that you deserve to exist. And think about the future more. You’re not going to just kill yourself after high school. You need to THINK about these things. Life is still going to happen whether you want it to or not.

That said, don’t go out of your way to alienate people, and support your brother goddammit. He may be cruel sometimes, but he needs help just as much as you do. Focus on your schoolwork, and write and draw as much as possible; also, don’t be ashamed of your love for animation. Become friends with people called Laitma and FastPuck online as soon as possible, because they’re amazing and will help you grow in ways you never imagined. Stop pushing Kit and weeplittlelionman (when you meet her in high school) away, because they’re going to be your most precious friends and you need them in your life. Try to accept your brother’s wife (Yes, he’s going to get married while you’re in high school, and there’s nothing you can do about it), because there’s nothing you can do about it- he’s happy, even if he’ll never go to college, so chill the fuck out. She’s got a lot wrong with her, but she’s an adequate mother and makes him happy, so there you go.

Cry all you need to about the people who have died or will die in your life, and that’s okay. In time, even though it’ll still hurt, it will be okay. You’ll never forget them. Crying doesn’t mean you’re weak, it’s just a means of releasing stuff. And you need that, believe me.

And most of all: It gets better. It really, really does. Even with all the financial stuff and having to move and everything with your brother, I promise that everything will be fine.”

So angry at myself right now.

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I’ve had just about e-fucking-nough of this shit, to be totally honest.

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So, after almost permanently bleaching my fingers and forehead white because I’m clumsy with bleach, I ended up with this today. It’s been a year since I’ve done anything interesting with my hair, so I figured I’d go for it. :> (plus Jswash was being awesome dyed part of her hair blue so YAY EXTRA BLEACH.

Of course, it’s only the direct light of the lamp that’s making the hair that bright- in reality, it’s a slightly more dingy blonde. But I’m okay with it. :>

Sorry for being gone, you guys. I’m still getting in the groove of this whole “school” thing again, and I’m hanging out with friends a lot, and all that. So I’ve barely been drawing or doing any writing that’s not for class. I’m also more than a little scatterebrained lately.

But I’m still alive? XD So hi.

Also, I dyed my bangs blonde again. I’ll post pics after my shower and stuff. :>

Enough of my shenanigans.

I didn’t even manage to get the story done for the school newspaper class (which I’ll likely drop, tbh), but meh. I’ll do it tomorrow. I have to spend three hours a week in that office, two of which are tomorrow. And that’s not including the fact that I’m the news editor, the comic I also have to draw, or anything else.

In short, fml. And oh yes, I work three days a week. ;_;

Meh. Done complaining. All will be well, provided I can force myself to be better about procrastinating this year. G’night, tumblr. XD

I hate living on the first floor. Mainly because stupid fucks think it’s okay to slam on my window in the middle of the night. And the constant fear of our window being broken into and our stuff stolen.

I need my moirail here to shooshpap me into not jumping out of the window after those fuckers. ;_;

So, tomorrow I leave for almost a week. I come back to the college on Sunday.

Normally I could just move in and arrange my new room, but they’re waxing the floors. Which means I have to pack everything into as-small-as-possible containers and leave them there. They’ll move them around as they wax.

It bothers me, because a) I like being organize when I get back from trips, and b) STRANGERS TOUCHING MY STUFF. So needless to say, I’m taking all my electronics and more important bits with me, along with my blankets (because blankets are a pain to move around and fuckno I am not risking wax on them).

Problem being, I leave at like 10 tomorrow and am not really packed yet. It honestly shouldn’t take much more than an hour or so to pack, since I doing my desk takes the longest (dear gog am I a packrat), so … meh. Luckily the room is RIGHT NEXT TO ME, so it won’t be a big deal. I’m just too lazy to do it tonight.

So I’ll get up and do it tomorrow. =D

That said, I love you all and shall miss you. :) IDK how active I’ll be able to be when I get back, as this semester is going to be killer, but~ ♥ Talk to you when I get back. :)

So, my suitemates and I were watching the construction guys working on paving the parking lot (totally a useful thing to do with our time, what are you talking about?) when we got a call from another one of our workers.

The girls staying in one of our buildings, despite our repeated warnings, kicked out their screens from their windows and kept all their windows and doors open. So, it’s not surprising that a bat found his way in.

Cue us going into the suite into a mass of shrieking girls, all of whom apparently don’t know jack shit about bats and thought it was going to go in their hair or whatever. Even the adult (in her 50’s) coach. And there was the little baby, just clinging helplessly to the pipe above one door, scared out of his mind.

All of the other staff members just wanted to whack at it with a broom, but I put my foot down, and we managed to catch it with a small trash can and a piece of plastic, though I had to fight really hard for them not to hurt him. We managed to get him outside, though I felt really bad that it was so light out for the little buddy.

And one of the girls, who had overheard me jokingly call him Bruce, asked me “Is Brucie okay?” as I left the building. LOLOL

I forgot to mention that I’m head out for a few days. I’ll leave tomorrow afternoon sometime and won’t be back ‘til Wednesday afternoon/night.

I am dork and usually forget to mention these things. ;;;

But, yeah. :> Just thought I’d let you know. I go home very rarely during the school year and summer, so this’ll be nice.

So, we went to a waterpark today (“we” being the staff, our bosses, and I), and I didn’t put on sunscreen because we were only there for three hours. Plus, it’s New England, when will there ever be sun?

And apparently the sun god heard this and went TROLOLOL, because we got sun for the first time in ages. Enough to burn me red as a lobster, anyway. Considering that I’m crazy pale to begin with …

It’s not a pretty sight, let’s just say that much. ;;; And even wearing a tank top is painful. ;;; (And I’m not even going to MENTION what my hair is going to do later when I try to deal with it. ;;; )

If I get skin cancer later on, it’s my own fault. ;;;

Okay, so today wasn’t quite as bad as I expected. XD I like my mentoring teammates, with the exception of one person, and it was pretty common-sense stuff. I’m still tired, because it was almost 12 hours of that, but hey. Not too bad.

Of course, tomorrow is going to be the more stressful/active day, but I hope I can deal with that alright. I just want to do a good job as a mentor, in some way. I told them I’m not right for the job, but whatever. I’m going to do my best. T:<

And then Thursday we get to go to Whale’s Tail, a waterpark in my home state, with my whole team. ♥ But now for an early bedtime so I can function tomorrow! =D

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Uwaaa!! We’re in the same time zone!! The internet makes the world so small. （^□^） Sounds like you should definitely make it an early night so you can be energized for tomorrow. Mondays require all the energy we can muster. >.>;;

EEEE! That almost never happens to me! XD So few people I talk to are in my time zone. Usually they’re way ahead, or at least an hour or two behind. :>

You know what the funny thing is? We’re not going to be doing ANYTHING tomorrow. XD Today was the big day, because we had to get guests out of the dorms, get everything OUT of those dorms, then check in 200+ kids, all within four hours. And tomorrow? We have to put out a handful of signs, check on the kids, and take the occasional phone call. Oh, and pick up mail for the kids. ;;;; So basically, nothing.

Which probably means that I’m just going to go back to my room and play Pokemon and/or nap. And maybe draw. But I still intend to go to bed early. :)